The confessions of a chocolate addict

2011-04-12T20:20:00.001+08:00

Today, for the first time in a very long time, I thought about my grandma.

And I missed her.

Head over heels.

2011-03-13T18:32:00.002+08:00

In the past year, I have seen 3 pairs of people falling in love.

It all started out pretty simple. First as friends. Then, over time, they became incredibly comfortable with each other. So comfortable, that they did a lot of things together; sometimes even pushing people away from those activities.

December 9 - Party

2010-12-11T19:02:00.002+08:00

Lets go party, work that body. - Just a random line from a song that occurred to me when I saw today's prompt.

Parties, hehe.

I've been to a couple this year, and the best one, I have to say was this one here.

Billboards!

ooh, they had the best music I had experienced in a long time. I don't know, it could be the combination of after exam excitement and great company, but this definitely felt like one of the best nights of the year. :D

And wanna know something, we didn't have ANY drinks the entire night, except for plain water. Can you believe it? :D

Can't say they had the best crowd around since we actually witnessed a fight being broken up. But the thing is, we didn't even notice the fight (which was practically next to us, really) until the bouncer jumped down from the stage to break it up (we managed to squeeze our way to the front) because we were so into dancing. We spent a solid 5 hours dancing non stop. Oh, it was good!

Don't worry, I shed the cardigan once we left halls.

December 8 - Beautifully Different

2010-12-11T18:37:00.003+08:00

Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.

Haha, this is such a self indulging post, but I'm going to write about it anyway.

To be honest, I really can't think of anything that makes me different from everyone else. But there is this thing that I keep hearing about myself.

I'm always so smiley.

So thats what people tell me. I don't know, I have never thought that about myself, but it is true that when I'm with people, I don't like showing them my unhappiness. So yes, I guess I am always smiling when I'm around with people.

There is this belief that I harbor - smiling heals. I truly believe that. So no matter how upset I am, I am still able to smile. Smiling lights your face up, its true.

So I guess thats really what makes me beautifully different - I can smile.

Boys and girls, its time to start smiling more.

December 7 - Community

2010-12-07T15:45:00.002+08:00

Most of my topics revolve around my being abroad, but understand that that was the biggest change that happened to me this year.

I lived in halls, so there were many communities available for me to be part of, and thats what I loved.

The first community I belonged to was that of my own hall. Everybody says this, but my hall is different. hahaha. It is, however, true that my hall has the closest community among all the other halls. Other people may disagree, but they know its true :p

We have supper nights twice a week, and this is the time everybody (well, not everybody, but the usual bunch of people who do go down for supper) just has fun. Food, people, no mistake in that. We talk, we play pool, or just fool around a bit.

Then, there is my own little floor community. My floor is the best. I mean, we even won the floorcest award! :D Most nights, the kitchen is the place to be because everyone will just be there, to cook or not, but definitely just to talk. On Nott nights, our floor is the floor. People come here for pre-drinks. I mean, we even had our own little mini club one night. :D

And then there is the Malaysian community within halls. I have met so many people from friends friends and stuff like that. Its amazing! There really is no need for further elaboration on this because as people say, Malaysians' when they see a fellow Malaysian, we're automatically a family. : )

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What community would I like to join in 2011?

I'm thinking of the photographers community. I've always been interested in photography, but I have never had the appropriate kits to seriously get it started with. This year, I might be getting an entry level DSLR and if I really do get it, hopefully, I'll begin taking awesome pictures. heee.

December 6 - Make

2010-12-07T15:07:00.003+08:00

Make

I'm going to sway away from the exact meaning of this prompt, instead of talking about making things, I'll be talking about making food.

I've always liked cooking. The simplest way to explain it is that I enjoy creating plates of food that I can share with people. There is so much satisfaction gained when someone tells you that your food is good.

As you guys already know, I moved abroad for studies this year and obviously that meant that I'd have to cook for myself at some point.

At that point, I really wasn't too confident about my cooking. I mean, I've made the occasional fried and scrambled eggs for lunch, instant noodles and even baked some muffins, but that was it. I've never had to go grocery shopping for meat, vegetables fruits etc. I have to admit, in the beginning, I was worried.

The first time I actually bought meat, I didn't actually know what to do with it. hahaha, but then I remembered my dad telling me something about marinating it for the flavours. So what I did was that I just poured in some random marinating sauce that I bought, and left it in the freezer.

Gradually, I realised that hey!, my cooking skillz aren't that bad after all! It was edible, and it didn't taste too bad either. :P So I ventured into dessert making. Among the desserts I've tried before, I have to say that my Pavlova was the best. Everybody loved it! and it wasn't that hard to make either. I mean, it wasn't round because I didn't have a round baking tray, and it collapsed a bit in the middle because I put too much fruits on it, but hey it tasted good. :p

Now I'm back in the safe and comfort of home, so I haven't been making anything edible for a while now. Next year, when I go back, I intend to be more ambitious and try making "harder" stuff.

#reverb10

2010-12-06T11:45:00.006+08:00

What is it all about, this #reverb10?

Well, its basically this month long project where all participants reflect on their year and manifest on whats going to happen next. And how is this happening? We're given prompts each day, and thats what we're to write on.

I'm starting this project a little late since I only found out about it a couple of minutes ago. :D

December 5 - Let Go

Now, this is a topic very close to heart at the moment.

Letting go is never an easy thing to do. But in this year, I have let go of so many things, people and plans.

#1 - Family

Nothing dramatic, don't worry. But this year, I moved away from home to go abroad to study. Although I never once regretted my decision, I have also never been away from my family for such a long period of time. Living away from them, was an interesting experience. There were days I'd feel so homesick in the beginning, I just wanted to curl up on bed and cry my day away.

But they shone, and gave me so much support throughout my year. I admit that sometimes, I'm having so much fun, for a moment, I forget that there are people back home that worry about me.

I'm home now, for the summer break. And in a couple of months, I'm going to be heading abroad again. I plan to never make them worry. An easy thing to say that is. But I will try.

I have let go the comfort of home. And I have survived :)

#2 - People

In the beginning of the year, I met a great bunch of people and we were close. Though at times I felt left out and awkward among them, I blew it off because with such a big group of people, I knew that I cannot be expected to be included in every thing that they do or talk about.

As the year moved on, I found out that, really, they are not the people I thought they were. I was disappointed, angry and hurt. But in that period of time, I also met a couple of people that I now consider to be friends for life. During this period, they were my support.

I have now learnt to let them go. It took me a long time before I was able to do this. But I can see now that hanging on is not worth my effort. And at most times, I'm happier off than I was before.

#3 - Plans

Plans. No matter what we do, there is always a plan in the background directing us. And this year, I have let go of many many plans. I have learnt that sometimes, although we plan our lives out so well, things may not just go as we want it to. And sometimes, its better not to have these plans because when things don't go as we planned, we get disappointed.

I have had to make many detours this year.

Life is more exciting sometimes if we just go with the flow and eliminate plans.

So these are the some of the things I've had to let go this year.

How about you?

Lesson #432

2010-12-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

The most important thing after you have fallen down, is to pick yourself up.

2010-12-03T13:43:00.003+08:00

Because Totoro makes me happy.

I never delete it off my hard drive.

I spent the last 2 hours watching Totoro.

I won't say I feel a lot better, but I guess I'm a little bit more ready than before.

No smiley faces because I can't lie.

2010-12-02T20:59:00.001+08:00

Show encrypted text

Disappointment.

2010-12-02T20:12:00.002+08:00

fuck you.

will not break me.

yet.

2010-11-29T15:58:00.003+08:00

Just..you know. chilling. with an apple in hand for breakfast. :)

One by one, things are picking itself up. Its hard to explain.

What is life right now? Life's good.

How have you been? :)

Hi there, :)

2010-11-26T16:50:00.001+08:00

What do you think?

This one time

2010-11-26T12:42:00.005+08:00

I got so upset, my hands shook and my voice quivered (very loudly, hahaha).

I was out at a mall with some friends, so I walked away when I got the call.

Thinking about it still makes me furious.

I keep telling myself to walk away. Walk away from the situation, walk away from the hurt and walk away from the anger like I did when I walked away from my friends.

Because being angry does not help.

And I walked away, I walked away from all of it.

But sometimes, I silently wander back and listen. To think and to wonder. Then when I find myself getting too angry again, I force myself to walk away.

And then we went to Max B.

They make me happy :)

2010-11-24T13:51:00.003+08:00

So whats been going on?

I've spent several nights out having fun.

I've been to Gold Coast.

And I'm now back home.

Obviously missing some people and places. But life is good. :)

2010-11-11T17:28:00.002+08:00

I think i just "awh" -ed out loud.

But it happened only because I saw that an acquaintance is now listed to be in a relationship :3

Love happens.

2010-10-26T19:53:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, not a lot, but on most days now I wonder and I think and then I feel like I've wasted so much time without being appreciated.

And sometimes, I wonder why I make the same mistake over and over again. And why no matter where I go, this mistake haunts me to no end. Why did I think that its different when its the same.

Everyone is the same.

Some people tell me this is what makes it interesting, but really? That big do not push button has been pushed so many times this year, every time I think nothing more is to come, someone pushes it again. And then there is this rising knot from my stomach that goes all the way up to my throat when I think about it.

And sometimes, I wonder how I can make it bearable. Because I get so angry when I think about it and sad at the same time.

My circle, has become a square. That space, has become dust.

And then I wonder, is it me?

Even though

2010-10-25T00:16:00.003+08:00

Its almost time for the sun to come up and even though I have a stack of notes in front me to study, I need to pen (type) my thoughts down.

The semester is coming to an end, and I can't help but think what will happen to me in the semesters to come. This semester has been such an eye opener to me.

I have learnt lessons I probably would have been better off not having to have learnt.

I have met so many new people that I love to death. Its funny that, it took me so little time to warm up to them and yet, it feels like I have known them my entire life. I have never experienced anything like this. And this is what makes me so scared.

When they leave, what will happen to me? Already, one of them will be leaving at the end of the semester.

What will happen to me when I return from summer. Life without people like them can make it unbearable, I know that. And then in the semester after that, a couple more will be leaving.

What happens to us? That weird bond that formed so strongly within such a short period of time.

Breakage? - That will possibly be the easiest thing to do. Heartbreaking in the beginning, but easier as life goes on. Am I really able to forget though? These times, are the best times of my life.

Continuity? - But how? Physical distance is always a problem. Talk on Skype? Nothing can beat a face to face.

All these questions cloud my mind, my thoughts. I cannot concentrate for fear of the future.

This fear, its terrible. I have never feared like I have right now. Even before I moved here, I didn't fear. All I had at that time was excitement.

So much things to think about..before I go to bed, after I wake up, when I am studying, when I eat.

What will really happen. Only time will tell. And time is what I am so afraid of.

There is

2010-10-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

This tiny little conscience within me that is tweaking.

It makes me feel a little nauseous, a little cold and a little satisfied at the same time.

But I know I have people who truly care (for now) and that is all that matters. That solace in knowing.

It makes me who I am.

And I am happy with myself.

Are you not?

2010-10-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

I am madly in love with Travie McCoy's songs.

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Random postings just cause I feel like it.

I think the mojo is finally back! :D

Are you happy, folks?

2010-10-04T14:36:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder how much I have changed.

I was looking at my old photos and at this exact time last year, I looked like this.

I now look like this.

I wish I was still as fresh faced as before.

And I find it so hard to believe how different I look now. My eyes are no longer as shiny and my smile is somewhat tired.

What happened?

2010-09-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

It is, indeed, not wise to hang on to someone who doesn't call or write.

//cut

Goodbye.

2010-09-18T00:42:00.004+08:00

The best way to bawl your eyes out is by watching 10 Promises to my Dog. Makes me cry all the time.

Guess who has swollen eyes and a pile of tissue next to her right now -_-

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2010-09-13T16:15:00.002+08:00

So here is a something I realised. A huge confession from me.

These past few months, I have been grappling with myself. The entire process of moving away from home, living by myself, making an entirely new life for myself has changed me.

It really wasn't hard thing to do, if I really were to be honest with you. In fact, I was excited more than sad about moving away. Sure, there were days I'd miss what life used to be before I moved away. And going back in between semesters was definitely the most fun I had.

But I've changed. For better and for worse. I honestly see things so much clearer now. I know who are the people I should care about. I used to be really upset when a friend I thought I was close to didn't ring or text me and I'd make an effort to keep in contact. I'd always be the one to make the first move.

Coming here, I just cannot be bothered anymore. My entire perspective on relationships have changed. Now, if you cannot be bothered to call me, I reciprocate. My perspective is that if you care enough, you'd call.

It used to be last time that whenever I have free time on hand, I'd make it a point to meet up with people I haven't seen in a while. I'd be the one making the calls, texting people to come, arranging transport for them even. And I am so tired of it.

The brief period that I was home, I only went out twice. And those are the people I know I can count on for. Things change, I know. And whether I will still be in contact with these people 10 years down the road – I don't know.

I'm upset about it. I cannot lie. When did I become such a different person in the shortest of time possible? Is this what you call maturity?

I have met quite a number of people, some I find to be able to get along with very well, my niche group if you like. I asked some of them if I have changed since they first met me, they told me no. But really, how would they know? They only just met me when I first moved here.

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh!" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you." ~A.A. Milne

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. ~Oprah Winfrey

The value of a relationship is in direct proportion to the time that you invest in the relationship. - Brian Tracy

Squeezing Oil

2010-09-06T20:31:00.003+08:00

Having taken my daily supplements of Evening Primrose Oil and Spirulina, I had a sudden flashback of when I was still a child.

Because I have been living with eczema almost my entire life, I have always taken the combination of the 2 above mentioned supplements to combat it.

There was a point in time when my eczema was so bad that I had water blisters all over the back of my legs, around my ankles, elbows. I didn't know at that time but thinking back, I realise how heartbroken my parents were because of that.

My parents used almost everything possible to reduce the itchiness, redness, scars. They used to but tubs of Evening Primrose Oil to be applied on my legs.

Now, just imagine this. Capsules of Evening Primrose Oil, paired with a safety pin to make a hole in the capsule so that the oil can be squeezed out onto my legs and arms. I remember this very clearly because I used to think that it was such a fun job to do. Couple this with some tea tree oil. And then rolls and rolls of bandages to wrap myself up so that I wouldn't be able to scratch in the middle of the night.

When my grandmother was still alive, we would go over to her place every Friday and I remember my mum always packing up a basket full of my PJs, and bottles of oil and rolls of bandages.

My skin has since gotten better. Still living with it not doubt, and scars here and there.

And I have realised one more thing that my parents have done for me.

I miss them so much. :(

Sin

2010-08-12T20:39:00.002+08:00

"Oh man, I'm almost halfway through the semester."

"Assignment due next week! I'll do some reading today."

"I'll start my readings after dinner..get through the first 3 weeks."

"Oooh! Let me play some video games in the basement first. I'll start at 9pm :)"

"I'll have a shower before I start work."

"Oooh! I haven't Facebook-ed today. Let me scroll through quickly"

" ._. Its 10.30pm? Aw man.."

"I'm gonna do a post on this. Haven't updated in the longest time."

"Oh flux. 10.45pm"

"Ok, I'll go study now.."

FML. That is what my usual days are like.

And now..to get down to some readings. This lines above are entirely true for today. :(

Yarra Valley

2010-07-22T18:04:00.002+08:00

I thank Henri Lim for reminding me about this post. heheh.

Uhrm, yeah.. I'm too lazy to post up photos so just take a look here

heheh.

2010-07-22T18:02:00.003+08:00

Everybody should do something crazy once in a lifetime.

What is crazy?

To some people its eating an entire bar of chocolate in a go. To others, it could be skydiving. Or maybe, cheat on your hair and have another relationship with a different hairstyle.

Whatever crazy is to you, just go do it.

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2010-07-03T14:01:00.002+08:00

Its good to take a break from the bustle of my normal life and just sit back and relax.

A little bit of the outdoors, a lot of fun and very long bus/train rides :)

A single shooting star made up for the entire 2 months of stressing.

More when I get back home - my real home. Pictures and stories coming up :)

Dumplings

2010-06-05T15:50:00.002+08:00

Did I mention that while I was in the city yesterday, I had really awesome dumplings?

Spinach and prawn dumplings. 12pcs. lunch.

omnomnom.

only..I don't think I know how to go find it again. Because its so hidden.

Which is also why I love Melbourne so much.

It is always such an adventure to go to the city, pick a random street and start exploring. Because as they said, the real Melbourne is the hidden Melbourne. : )

Its starting to get cold-er now. I love it. I love waking up to foggy mornings, snuggly and warm under my bed cover.

It is a real struggle to get up, though. Didn't make it to most of my classes this week, hehe.

But its exams in a week. I should be more nervous, I think. My deputy college head told me something I like to ponder upon.

Pot luck dinner later! nomnom. I love pot luck dinners. If not for the company, then the food :D

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But I do want to go home. I miss my home, my parents and my dog. .

Shopping

2010-06-04T21:04:00.002+08:00

Shopping is such a relaxing activity, don't you think?

:D

I went to the DFO at South Wharf today. It was awesome!

I did spend quite a bit, but I have not gone broke. :D Plan to head right down again after my exams (which are coming up in about a weeks time, btw).

Feel a bit guilty buying these things, yes. And my wardrobe is really starting to fill up..but! How can you stop yourself from A$10 jumpers and 2 for A$40 jeans! :D D:

: D

2010-05-25T16:20:00.002+08:00

So..I never understood why people stopped updating their blogs when they go away for studies..but i think I can relate to that now. lol.

Not that I was updating very frequently anymore even before I went away, but yeah you get the picture.

So I have been uber busy this week, with 3 assignments due + a practical to do.

okay, i just went to put on hold a couple of books for my exams and have lost the mood to blog >(

i guess..another time?

2010-05-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hunger is inevitable when you stay up late.

Staying up late is inevitable when you have 3 assignments due in a week.

This blogger just started her first assignment.
This blogger has a shit partner.
This blogger is hungry.

THE STRESS.

2010-05-08T16:16:00.002+08:00

There is NO, I repeat, NO free dryers available across the 12 floor of Howitt!

How is this even remotely possible!

Now I have a large mound of damn clothes that are beginning to smell a lot like old socks, and a tiny clothes horse that can only fit 5 pieces of my damp mound.

I have 1290570290349 damn mounds left to dry!

FTSFTSFTSFML.

And I haven't finished my assignment yet. fml.

2010-05-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

I just bought myself a Blair Waldorf, albeit toned down, bow hairband today.

Its red. With a bow at the side.

At KMart, for $3.

I know, I'm so trendy right.

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2010-04-25T17:25:00.002+08:00

I miss my fur buddy teddy :(

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Ho hum.

Fabric softener really does work lolol. I bought a small bottle the other day feeling rather stupid because I never actually thought that it would work but it did. Now I don't feel so stupid anymore hahahaha.

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My weekly shopping consists of more biscuits and chocolates and snack that actual food. damn this.

I think I have enough snacks to last me till the end of the year but I'll probably have finished it off by the end of the semester wtf. which is something like a month thanks to my mum reminding me ._.

All the girls have been tipping the scales.

I can't believe how we actually fall for that stupid yellow tag under the price sticker that screams PRICE CUT or SALE at us. ALL MARKETING GIMMICKS! RAWRRRR!!

but but tim tams at $2 a packet and 3 for $6 Smith's chips and 1/2 price mars and snickers.

all baddd!

You know..

2010-04-15T19:14:00.001+08:00

Its not exactly polite when you see someone for the first time in the longest evah(!) and tell the person

"God, you look like fuck. Other than that, I missed you!"

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But yes, I missed you too!

2010-04-11T19:12:00.001+08:00

And right now, I am SO homesick :'(

Boom

2010-04-05T14:59:00.003+08:00

Damn.

I hate that I can't just sit down quietly and start doing my assignments. I have been dilly dallying since 3pm ._. And I have 2 assignments due after Easter. damn damn damn.

Oh, I'm super excited about this weekend!

We're going to the Melbourne Aquarium and Eureka Skydeck! :D :D :D

damn. I feel so broke and its only the beginning of the month. damn damn damn. T_T

2010-03-22T21:27:00.004+08:00

Today marks the month that I have made the big move.

Not much blogging in the past month, yes I know. I have been rather busy setting up but i think I've finally settled down.

It didn't take me long to adapt to my life here. Maybe its because I have visited on several occasions and for that, I'm thankful.

What have I been doing here so far?

Weelll, besides going for horribly monotonous lectures and tutorials, grocery shopping and cooking. Nothing much. Haven't even been studying much, hmm.

And to summarize:

heh

And I look ridiculously happy on this particular day because it was still summer and we were at the beach.

From the other side..

2010-03-21T09:39:00.003+08:00

Every morning, I look out my my window, warm and snuggly in bed (because my bed is next to the window..and the radiator -_- ) to see if the trees are shaking and groaning. If they are, I pack a jacket with me.

It was crazily hot the last week though.

This morning, I woke up to the sound of flapping curtains and banging doors; all caused by the wind outside.

I stretched and slipped deeper into the wool blanket, taking glory in the wind.

I got up after a while because the doors and curtains were being noisy. Brushed my teef, carried a bowl of corn flakes to the kitchen, poured a cup of milk and munched my breakfast alone in the kitchen; making notes in my head about the day ahead.

I'll get some studying done as I planned; I noted.
I need to do a load of laundry today, there is seasoning on my shirt! ; I noted.
What am I gonna eat for lunch/dinner, hmmm; I wondered.
OH! Was going to make chicken chop!; I noted.

I came back to my room, turned on the laptop and checked my mail. I stalked some people on Facebook, watched a few episodes of Gilmore Girls and quickly browsed through some blogs.

Stared around at the table for a bit and then noted once again to myself to please finish the loaf of bread and not waste it!

Now I'm going to do my tutorial for tomorrow.

Just thought I'd check in :)

Best shit ever!

Bye mummy

2010-03-15T18:24:00.003+08:00

So I've been here almost a month now.

And I have been adjusting, or so I thought.

My mum has been here with me for about 2 and a half weeks and today, she's leaving for home.

In fact, as I am typing this, she is sitting in my aunt's car on the way to the airport.

:'(

And then I realise. Only now am I going to start adjusting. Because having my mum here for the past weeks isn't considered adjusting. Its a honeymoon period.

:''(

I will miss her.

2010-03-08T15:10:00.003+08:00

I really like the feeling of wind blowing at my face.

But I don't like how my eyes dry up and my contact lenses feel like its gonna pop out.

Its kinda amazing how I have been here for 3 weeks already. Almost a month. My friend count is still below average I think -__- because I have been going back to my aunts place almost every weekend since I was here.

Mum is leaving next week. I can't send her off because its on tuesday midnight. T_T

Its weird how living by myself now, I have so much more time than I did when I lived at home.

hm.

I'm hungry. Meat count in the fridge is still zero.

gonna go buy some on wed.

bye.

Burnnn

2010-03-02T15:20:00.001+08:00

Last Friday, I went to St Kilda's beach.

I got sun burnt.

Yesterday, I was walking back from my 5pm class.

I got wind burnt.

2 burns in a span of 3 days.

Ouch, my skin is peeling and I don't know which burnt its from.

Thank you for listening.

2010-02-21T16:28:00.003+08:00

I am an epic phail at scolding people. -_-

The other day, I ordered McDs for lunch and the delivery boy took an hour + to get to my place.

After an hour of waiting, i got fed up of waiting and called up the service center to demand for an explanation. After I ranted about how this always happens to me and that I am paying 3 bucks for delivery, I expect to have my food arrive on time! The boy on the other line just kept saying sorry, yes I understand. Sorry about the situation.. etc.

After a while, I finished ranting to him and asked him to please highlight this to his manager / superior..

And then I said thank you -___________-

Nobody says thank you after scolding someone right. -______-

Super fail, aih.

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Tomorrow, bye bye!

2010-02-17T16:10:00.001+08:00

How is it that I managed to over book myself for the rest of the time before the big move?

Gahh! *does the Domokun rawr hand gesture*

Again, Mr. Time!

2010-02-12T11:14:00.003+08:00

OMG, only 9 more days before the big move.

How did that happen?? It went from double digit to single digit in the flash!

And I haven't finished washing all my stuff!!!

OMG.

Life will not be the same once the big move is done.
Everything I know that has been so familiar to me;
that will all change and begone.

So how do you feel now?

To need to recreate life.

Because it will never be the same again.

The BB cult

2010-02-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

So here are the promised pixels of my BB.

I was supposed to get one from Maxis/Hotlink because we have used their service for years but they had something like a 6 week waiting list. Plus..I had to put down a deposit for it which is crazy because people in general do not pay for something that is not there yet.

Decided not to get it from them. So happen my brother has a friend who recently opened a BB shop that sells their phones and accessories. So my brother got me one from his friend's shop.

OMG, SO EXCITED!

Hi, pretty! ^_^

The trackpad

^__^

I got mine imported from UK's T-mobile..

So I have been using the BB for about a week now and so far no complains. My phone came with a 1GB memory stick in addition to the 512mb that is internal to the phone. Maxis/Hotlink is only giving 512mb -___-

Plastic money..

2010-02-08T10:27:00.002+08:00

Today, I witness something that most people would cringe at.

I was at Zara, 1 utama, lining up at the payment counter to pay for a jacket I wanted to buy. The person in front of me had like, 10 items in total. I was thinking to myself.. O_O because Zara clothes aren't exactly cheap in Malaysia.

So her turn came and the cashiers were checking in her items and with every beep of the scanning machine, the amount on the screen grew and grew to.. RM1029 (hahahaha, yes I peeked! What to do, curious ok!) She handed the cashier her credit card and waited. But the card was rejected. So she handed him another card already looking quite flustered but the card was also rejected. She was now blushing quite furiously.. SO even more flustered than before, she took out another card but this time she was also counting out all the cash she had. All bills of RM50, I believe she had roughly RM600 in cash. And worse of all, her third card was also rejected. When the cashier handed the third card back to her, her face was completely flushed! She was so red.

So her boyfriend was with her and all he did was ask "why why why? what happened!" She then told the cashier to hold onto her purchases while she went to withdraw some cash..

>_<

Is it really necessary to buy so much clothes? And her boyfriend too! How can he just stand there letting her to grow all flustered and not even offer to pay. C'mon he didn't have to pay for all right, just a small portion since she already had about RM600 on her.

I dunno guys these days..

After I finished buying my stuff, I walked out and headed down the escalator. I saw the very same girl running up the other side of the escalator; cash in hands..

hmm.

This is post #390

2010-02-07T02:27:00.003+08:00

And I want to let all of you know that I will be very busy in the upcoming week.

I have a lot of small gatherings planned out and Chinese New Year is coming and the big move is also fast approaching..

I will update as soon as everything is set up and I have settled down relatively..

But I have scheduled some posts so do keep coming! :D

I can fry fries with my hair (>_<)

2010-02-04T16:15:00.004+08:00

Tonight, I am going to relish in washing my hair.

I had my hair relaxed on Tuesday and you know how they tell you, you can't wash your hair for 3 days which is totally gross btw. So its Thursday already and i cannot, CANNOT wait any longer. My bangs are super greasy, ew >_<

Gonna spend like half an hour in the shower today to wash my hair, condition it because I didn't do a hair treatment after relaxing it and shave my legs..too much information? :D

Oh and for those who don't already know..relaxing my hair means I straightened it. My hair had totally regrown, leaving the upper part of my head frizzy and wavy and the lower part stick straight.

And i also had it chopped off from waist length to a little below the shoulders. and thinned too. So now it feels weird when I brush my hair and have so little to brush ._.

And I know I promised pixels of my BB but once again I've lost my cables... why are those things so easy to lose!

The tiger ate my mood

2010-02-01T17:24:00.003+08:00

Ok, I honestly do not know how people do it!!!

Today, I started packing. And by packing, I meant dumping all my stuff into the suitcase with minimal space arrangement and its already 3/4 full!

And I only dumped in a little bit of the things I intend to bring. Months before, I had started to gradually buy things I know I need so that my pocket and my mum's pocket won't feel so bruised if I buy all my stuff all at one go..

I still have clothes that need to be washed and iron. Closets to empty out. Gadgets to pack. And personal hygiene items!

I know that rolling up the clothes will save space but I don't see the point in rolling up my items so early because it'll get all crumpled and wrinkly.. I hate wrinkly clothes!

Some one asked my today why I'm packing so early hahahaha. Well, my mum has been bugging me a bit to start packing so I won't leave out anything. And I actually don't have a lot of time left anyway. CNY will take up about 5 days to just laze around..then there is the CNY spring cleaning. Farewells, shopping sprees, hair & dental & eye appointments to make. And then there is the part where my cousin is fresh out of SPM and needs some help with college applications etc. and I have to accompany him to go college hunting..

There really isn't much time left.

And this is a bit sad. This year is the first year that my CNY doesn't even feel like CNY. All my friends are all "YEAR OF TIGERRR! ANGPAO!!! FOOOOOD!!!" and I like :'(

I always feel excited about CNY! well, in the past 1X years of my life anyway. and and and! no new clothes this year for me also!!! Because I don't want to buy clothes that I won't be bringing along with me. bahhh.

But the upside is: I LOVE MY BLACKBERRY!

Pixels very soon.

heheh

2010-01-31T21:29:00.003+08:00

will miss u alot
tho we onli noe met each other for 1 year ++ but the relationship we build, i believe is very strong

someone said this to me over msn today. I totally T__T at this because she is right. And I will so miss the bunch of them!

She asked me how I felt about the big move. I told her I feel..numb. And that it feels a little surreal. Like its not really happening. And it really doesn't feel like its happening so quickly and so soon.

3 months ago, I was stressing over the big move, trying to get all my documents done up and accommodation settled. Today, I have already paid a month's rent in advance and all my documents are safe. All that is left is to pack. My brother cleared out the luggages a few days ago.. Its still sitting on the foyer of my floor..empty. And I don't want to start because its just so sad :(

2010-01-31T17:53:00.001+08:00

I LOVE MY BLACKBERRY!

I'm joining THE cult

2010-01-29T17:46:00.004+08:00

I hate to say this (no, actually I'm lying. I really want to say this heheh) but I'm joining the BlackBerry Cult!

Woots!

I have been eying for one for so long now. Always wanted the BB Bold but its a little too expensive for me so I'm going for the Curve. :D :D :D

BlackBerry Curve 8520, mama is coming for you sooon!

Was at Gardens/MidValley again today. I went to the Maxis centre to ask them about their BB promotion but they had already run out of stock. I asked if i could place and order for one first and they said I had to pay first. wtf.

Who the hell pays for a phone that isn't even here yet. Stupid Maxis.

Pixels up once I get my hands on my set!

Hello there,

2010-01-25T21:15:00.001+08:00

Guess what!

I am hungry! ._.

Had to help supervise some people who came over to polish our marble floor. It looks gooood now!

Its shiny..

2010-01-22T16:18:00.001+08:00

I got my laptop back today.

Its all empty! :(

Am now in the midst of re-downloading all my softwares :(
This requires so much work!

But I got a replacement battery cheap :D

guess all is good!

2010-01-19T22:00:00.002+08:00

One day, I will watch Wicked the musical live.

Hopefully on Broadway.

Till that day.

Steel people

2010-01-18T11:28:00.002+08:00

Ok, here is a question for you.

Take this scenario:

Everyone is looking for a parking space at 1 utama roughly around 1.45pm,as we are turning a corner I spot a car backing out of a parking space. I nudged the driver and asked him to make a rather illegal left turn so that we could bag the now empty parking space.

When we get there, we suddenly see a woman and her young son standing in the parking space. So we waited for a while, expecting her to move but she doesn't. We roll our windows down and ask her to move. She tells us that her car is coming. We -__-ed for a little and told her that she can't do that because our car is already here and you can't just 'chop' a parking space by standing at the spot. This leads to a rather heated exchange with her telling us that she has been rounding for a parking spot for a long time now.

To cut the story short, we bumped her out of OUR space and park into the spot. We see her getting into her car, which is now at the same corner that we turned..

So the question is:

Can a human reserve a spot for a car that is on the way.

My answer is:

You can if there are no cars that want to take the space. But once a car appears, you need to move the hell out of the way because they are here first!

What is your answer? Is this just Malaysian mentality or what.

Give me a list!

2010-01-17T18:39:00.002+08:00

I had a sudden idea on a blog post but then I procrastinated and blog hopped and now I uh, can't remember what I wanted to blog about already -___-

wait, let me retrace and see if I can recall..

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Okay..I think I was going to write about books.

I need a short list of books that you recommend because I will need something to do in my tiny AAX seat in about a month or so -__- My mum has already bought a crossword puzzle book because she said she will die of boredom if she doesn't have anything to do on her way home alone. hahahahah.

And it still hasn't really hit me how soon I will be away.

Oh oh, question. Does AAX have ports for laptop charger?

And I think I heard something about being charged for every bag I check in? how on earth does this work? Lets say I have 15kgs..so can I have 2 bags amounting up to 15kgs or can I only have 1 bag?

Any help is much appreciated lo. I went onto their website but I got more confused.

Meh. no pictures these days coz laptop is still not with me. And the laptop I'm using now has fried USB ports and not campatible with the PCPIM I bought wtf.

2010-01-13T14:38:00.002+08:00

Soo, I'm thinking of changing my header again...

I think the background of the current one is a little weird. Its actually muffin mix but it kinda looks like...poop. >_<

If I ever get to it la. I don't have photoshop anymore :( so I don't know how much I can do with paint. Argh, I don't have photoshop anymoreeee

Missing

2010-01-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

I sent my laptop in for checking today.

When I came home and went back to my room, I automatically reached to my right and pressed the air. Then I remembered that my laptop was being poked around by engineers :(

So I had to dig out my family's old laptop to use. I really am not used to it. The keyboard is tiny and the keys are hard to press so it mKEs me write lik this... >( Either I keep pressing the caps button instead of the letter a, or I have spelling errors because I didn't press the key hard enough/mis-press another letter cause of the tiny keyboard.

And right, all the usb ports are roasted so I can't used a mouse. I always absent mindedly reach out for the mouse and grabbing nothing. Aih.

Worst part is, ALL MY BOOKMARKS ARE GONE!!!!! cannot blog hop or whatever easily now. Have to manuall type down the URL of which ever blog I remember.

Got withdrawal symptoms also.

Aih, now I know how reliant on my laptop I am.

My black box

2010-01-08T18:12:00.003+08:00

Like I mentioned yesterday, I was in Mid Valley for the chocolate exhibition. I wasn't as I expected, unfortunately.

I had thought it would be a pretty grand event considering how it was the first chocolate exhibition in Malaysia but it wasn't. They didn't even have the whole exhibition centre to themselves. People there are a little crazy, squeezing and pushing at you like they have never seen chocolates before -_- Or its just Malaysian mentality -___-

They had some pretty good deals there. The few that caught my attention was

a) Palmer's Cocoa butter booth. Its right at the entrance and I think they're having a promotion. If you're a fan of their cocoa butter, they have a buy 1 free 1 promotion. 250ml for RM33 which is a good deal considering how 1 bottle usually cost about RM30 already.

b) The Lindt chocolate promotion booth that is located somewhere towards the end. The prices are slightly cheaper than retail price and they have a rather large range of their products on sale.

c) The GuyLian/Hershey's booth. Need I say more?

Didn't spend much there because I was very annoyed with the crowd..I did buy the cocoa butter though.

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Was also at Austin Chase later on sipping an ice blended Mocha Chip in their reading room. I really liked the store's concept because it seems so quaint and inviting. We spent out time mostly in the reading room, playing Monopoly! It was fun.

They even have Pandora's Box (the book) there plus an array of Archie's Digest, National Geographic magazines, Spiderman/Superman comic books there. Games are freely available. I forgot to take pictures this time because I was busy buying properties and building houses... heh.

[Insert title here]

2010-01-07T21:58:00.004+08:00

Ok, so I think my blogging hiatus is over because in a span of 30 minutes, I am in the midst of writting my second post.

I just have this sudden urge to type and type on my laptop.

Rah Rah Ah Ah Ah;
Ro Ma Ro Ma Mah;
Ga Ga Oh La La;
Want Your Bad Romance;

Heh, got this stuck in my head.

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So I have had wanted to actually go all out and learn something new this summer but somehow this idea just didn't manage to go through.

For ages I have wanted to learn the guitar. I almost took up a basic guitar course last month and then suddenly decided against it. Not because I suddenly chickened out but because I realised just how unpractical it would be especially since I will barely be able to play.

Right now, I have a sudden urge to learn French -_-

And tomorrow, I will be at Mid Valley. Heard there will be some kind of chocolate exhibition there starting tomorrow and I thought I'd go have a look see. :D

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Here is Katie Herzig - Charlie Chaplin

2010-01-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

I have Lady Gaga on repeat and right now Love Game is busting my ears.

And then I remember how I used to blast Love Game, Katie Herzig's; Wish You Well, Miley Cyrus's; Party in the USA and Lenka's Trouble Is A Friend, occasionally a BEP song in between every friday in the Multimedia Lab of my school with friends sitting on either of my side asking me if I really didn't have any songs to play and if I could JUST PLAY ANOTHER SONG FOR GOD'S SAKE!

Sometimes, I'd scramble to mute my speakers because my lecturer would suddenly come in and I would be too engrossed in either working on my code or playing bejewelled trying to beat each other with the highest scores. And then there are times when one of us would suddenly find a new game and everybody would just immediately be playing the game. Or when I would just skip out of my lab and walk over to the Networking Lab to look for my other friends; catching up.

Sneaking up snacks after lunch, stressing over possibly unfinished code, bitching about our marks later, "copying" code from each other and general joking every where around.

I kinda miss it.

2010-01-05T17:49:00.004+08:00

This morning, I got the biggest scare in my life when my email to accomodations was returned, telling me that my acceptance documents has not been received.

I freaked because

i) I sent in my documents + bank draft on the 17th of December 2009, which is more than 2 weeks from today.
ii) Deadline for documents receipt is 15th Jan - only 10 days away!
iii) I PAID IN AUD LEH, WANNA DIE???

So I called:

1) my mum, telling her of the situation
2) MUM, asking them about my situation and explaining my concerns
3) MRS, explaining my situation to them.

Around 1pm, I made my way to the campus, wanting to get an explanation and to get to the bottom of the situation.

Fortunately for me, halfway there, I received a call from the person in charged informing me that the Australian counterpart HAD already received my documents. I questioned him, because just this morning, the email informed me that nothing have been received. He confirmed with me and even gave me a name to check with.

So I turned the car around and headed home. Around 1.45pm, I reached home and immediately called MRS because of the 3 hour time difference, I needed to act asap. At first, she told me that she hadn't received my documents which made me a little bit dizzy because MUM specifically told me that they had already received it. I explained to her and she put me on hold. A little while later, she reconfirmed that my document HAVE BEEN RECEIVED but was in the pile that was to be processed hence the earlier panic.

I

and then

because FINALLY they tell me that my documents have been received. I mean, very important for me to make sure I get a room lor because all my arrangements and plans have been made already and this MAJOR glitch that is not my fault may have ruined everything!

Now, even though I have confirmation that they received my bank draft already, I am still a little paranoid that they my bank draft for a deposit is not with them T____T

drama betul.

So how did you

2010-01-02T17:23:00.005+08:00

Spend your new year's?

I spent it with my closest friends.

The first half of the day was spent eating and catching up. First food stop was at

where we spent 2 hours, talking more than eating ^_^

Then we trolled around Mid Valley trying to search fora pair of heels for wai kwan, but ended up in

where we spent another hour. :D and spent some time taking pictures of

where the domokuns is now my display picture.

Then, we finally became serious and went shoe shopping only to end up in a lot of clothes store.

Around 6pm, we then met up with the other girls who were meeting us for dinner. So, we went to

where I had their homemade pesto

which was really good.

And how many receipts did I collect at the end of the day?

T____T

2010

2009-12-31T23:55:00.003+08:00

I cannot believe that 2009 is over!!!!!!!!

This year has passed by extraordinarily fast and although I say it every single year, this year really has just whoosed passed! I cannot believe that I'll be turning old so soon is part of it T_T

My year has been amazing, to say the least. I have had a few major downs, one delivered to me rather recently, but I know I'll be able to get through it. So, heres my year in summary.

January:

I decided I wanted to have my hair straightened after soo many years of having uncontrollable and unmaintainable hair.

I also incredibly enjoyed my Chinese New Year.

February:

I started my Project 365..

March:

Participated in Earth Hour 2009,

and began first year in uni.

April:

I had a rather crazy month catching up with my mid sem exams and finally got around to making a new header for my blog. Until now, I actually still secretly prefer my old header >_<

May:

Had a super bout of emo-ness.

June:

Stopped my emo bout and slowed down on everything else besides studying. In other words, I became a super nerd..

July:

Went on semester break and my project 365 started to loose pace. -_-

August:

My hairstylist wanted to see how I would look like with curled locks, so she curled my hair for me..

And I started another new project after ending my project 365. I aimed to insert a song that I'd like to share with my readers after each post I made..which in case you haven't noticed.. T_T

September:

Ah, yes! The start of my immense blogging hiatus..

October:

Decided that I wanted to get myself a DSLR which I still haven't but not because I've lost the interest. I realised how unpractical it would be for me to get a new pro camera since my photography skills are still very amateur. I intend to first fine tune my skills then make the decision again. :D
November:

Got hives from waxing T___T
December:

Has been pretty hectic even for my standard. I have been preparing stuff for my big change next year and this month pretty much consisted of getting ready my legal documents for it.

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In summary, I think I have had a rather fulfilling year. The first half of the year started out great and I had set a lot of expectations for myself, which I am glad to say I met. But once the second half of the year rolled in, I slacked off and found myself stuck in several holes I dug for myself. I have hence learned to climb out of those holes and am hoping it will do me a lot of good with my change for the next year.

The new year is a few moments away..have a great start to it everyone!

I'll be spending new year's eve with my family and new year with a bunch of my close friends. I can't see a better start to a new year than that.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, WELCOME 2010.

2009-12-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of trying so hard. Everytime I see you make an effort with another one of your little league of people, I get a stab in my heart knowing that you don't make the same effort to do the same for me. And I'm tired of always being the one to try to make contact. Today, I give up. Either you make the effort or our puny line of connection is done and over with. You make the choice.

What's your avatar?

2009-12-24T17:49:00.001+08:00

Today, I went and watched Avatar.

I thought the movie was great! Very creative and the animation and graphics were awesome.

Next on my list is Sherlock Holmes :D

Whats on your list?

2009-12-22T16:55:00.002+08:00

So, everything is ready now. All the important stuff, legal documents etc has been settled!

You have no idea how much relief I felt when I saw the "applicant approved" line there lo. -_- damn stress I tell you. Had several sleepless nights waiting for those 2 words. hehe.

Dancing Prisoners

2009-12-13T20:07:00.002+08:00

Hah!

So I was with my cousin today and he and my brother got into a conversation of how Phillipinos' like to perform. Singing, dancing, instrumental performance, you name it they probably know someone who does it. And then he asked us if we had ever seen a video on youtube on prisoners in the Phillipines performing.

Obviously, I hadn't and I came home to youtube it and man, they are really good! Here are a few videos to share..

These are just a few to share. Search it on youtube and you'll have hours of entertainment :P

Read all about it here.

On the other hand (pun intended), I got another paper cut! A huge one at that.. :(

2009-12-09T14:22:00.001+08:00

CONFIRMED ALREADYYYY!!

I am beyond euphoric now!

2009-12-07T00:32:00.006+08:00

Every Sunday, my family and I have lunch together.

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For the person that has held onto me since the day I was born. For the woman who never gave up on me. For the mother who never made me doubt her love.

I have made a promise.

To never feel this wretched again, ever; I made a promise.

2009-12-05T16:57:00.001+08:00

New post coming soon!!!!!

I just need to find my camera cable and transfer all the genting pictures and do some editing and write the post out.....

Ok, sounds like a lot to do actually.

I really wanna blog about my trip but I can't coz I can't find my camera cable :( been searching for it for a few days already.

choco is mourning her semester 2 results.

Prospective

2009-11-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

If a building is on fire, would you save 5 strangers or 1 sibling?

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Of course anybody's first instinct is to answer 1 sibling right. But think again. 5 strangers or 1 sibling?

Imagine yourself to be in the situation.

Would you be able to stand watching 5 people die while you save your sibling?

In theory it seems like a simple nonsensical question. In reality, it confuses me.

I still don't know who'd I'd save. But as hard as it is to imagine abandoning a loved one, will you do the correct thing?

And anyway, what is the correct thing?

Oh, Mr Time!

2009-11-17T18:25:00.004+08:00

You know, it never fails to surprise me how fast the year has passed.

I don't remember time ever passing so fast before. Not last year or the years I spent in school. I mean, every year I repeat over and over again how fast the year has passed but this year..it kinda scares me a little. :/

So many last things are going to happen soon you know. Last year I can call myself a teen, last year before I ... , last year to feel the comfort .. ]. So many lasts. :(

Meh, emo choco aside.

I AM ON HOLIDAYS! and first year has just ended..*insert sad face

wooo! 2 and a half months free from rushing for assignments, staring at code all day long, cramming facts into my head for exams. I am looking forward to it!

But, its funny. The day I had my final paper, and I got home. I stared around my room and felt a tiny pull inside of me. It felt as if I had no more purpose. haha, I know very cliche. But spending months of doing so many things just grows on you I guess?

And I feel so bored now. -_- I have been sleeping 10/11/12 hours a day. I have watched so many movies, catched up on all my tv series and read so many of my backdated daily blogs. All in 3 days. Bah.

But now..I am..rewatching:

Charmed - haha, omg! This show is oldd.
House - seasons 1 -4
1 litre of tears - yes, again! So far, I have used about half a box of tissues hehe

That plus waiting for weekly episodes of season 6 Greys Anatomy and Desperate Housewives to come out :D

Oh, and the occasional mall slithering sprinkled in between my couch potato-ing (actually more like chair, coz I watch on my laptop on a rather uncomfortable chair -_-) :D

ANDANDAND FRIENDS ARE MAKING THEIR WAY BACK HOME!

WELCOME BACK ALL YOU FREAKS WHO LEFT TO STUDY! CATCH UP TIMEEEEEE! :D

With much love.

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Katie Herzig - Wish You Well

I heard this song playing on the latest episode of GA and went youtube hunting. It is so awesome!

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Howling at the New Moon

2009-11-16T16:31:00.008+08:00

Ok, I can almost see your puzzled expression when you saw my title.

And you're thinking why the hell would I howl at the new moon right. -_-

HELLO, HAVE YOU BEEN LIVING UNDER A ROCK?!

New Moon (TWILIGHT SAGA) coming soon la! *shiver in excitement

I am such a fan girl. I went through the entire book in, like 2 days lor! I swear, I do not lie.

Nah, share with you all the trailer..

Ok, I dunno why but I totally teared at the part where the werewolves and vampires started to fight. And and and, *cough got hot werewolf bodies too :D

*pant pant*

If you were to look at me skeptically and ask me what I like most about the Twilight Saga, I don't really think I can answer you. My friends have asked me before but I couldn't answer them also.

I think its the small part of fantasy world living in me. I love fantasy books - Harry Potter (read and own the entire series), Pendragon, Gaia, TWILIGHT (read the entire series off my brother's girlfriend :p). Again, I believe its that part in me which wants to believe that the magical world IS real, that there are werewolves and vampires living among us, and that somewhere, there is that little portal that can transport us into the other world.

You may think I sound crazy for speaking like this, but think all you like. :P

I like how Stephenie Meyer, managed to get the werewolves and vampires to work together because of the common link that they have - protecting Bella. I also like the idea of how she managed to think of vampires being cold and werewolves being hot. This makes me think of werewolves as a furry little dog I can hug to sleep ehehe.

Ok la, I dowan to write long long lengthy posts. I just wanna win those pair of tickets! WAHA.

Please?

Click here for more info.

boohoo

2009-11-10T18:54:00.004+08:00

Update: THEY SAID SHOULDN'T BATHE IN WARM WATERR! cannot la, raining now and I always bathe in warm water wan T_T

If you haven't been following me on twitter (faster follow!) I have the hives T__T

Again, if you haven't been following me on twitter, I finally figured out why I haven't used my wax strips in soo long - because I am allergic to them.

See the connection anybody?

I'M ALLERGIC TO MY WAX STRIPS SO I GOT HIVES FROM WAXING T__________T

FML x 100

So itchy can die ah. And apparently, it's not unusual. I obsessively google on the treatment for hives and found out that a lot of people have it also!

boohoo. :(

I have had hives once before when I was 14/15 but this time its worse because it doesn't actually go away after a while but the swell just remains there for, like, ever wtf. :(

and it was during an exam also hmph.

I think this is the onset from my supeeeer stress from last week and the combination of pulling hair out of my skin BAH. my life sucks. :(

*insert sad face*

2009-11-08T16:37:00.001+08:00

I just typed out a long post but at the last minute, decided not to post it.

So, this is the intermission post! :D only5 more days till the last exammmm! *insert happy face

2009-10-31T15:57:00.003+08:00

♥ ♣ ♦ ♠

Happy Halloween everybody! I hate Australian semesters because I can never go for Halloween parties anymore cause its always exam period at this time of the year. On the other hand, I can celebrate CNY!♥

chocolove™

WAHAHAHHA.

I really should get back to studying. T_T stupid exams has me so worried that I may fail a subject *touches wood

The Apple is calling

2009-10-21T17:14:00.004+08:00

Good chocolate falling from the sky :O

Have you seen Apple's recent creation. The Magic Mouse? NO?!

Will you please look at this!! !! ! ! !

So sexy. iosowan. Unfortunately, I only use a RM9 mouse. :D Coz I cannot bear to pay more than RM10 for a mouse. i kiamsiap (thrifty).

False hope.

2009-10-12T18:48:00.003+08:00

This morning, when I was taking my morning shower I thought I saw something different about my, well, body. And I was confused. So I stared and stared until I finally realised what was different.

my boobs look bigger!!!!!!

I was giddy with happiness, because lets face it. At my age, boobs don't grow any more. Or for that matter, I will only continue to grow horizontally. *inserts sad face*

So I poked and prodded and then got momentarily scared because i recently saw a lot of breast cancer campaigns and did a self check. Then, I finally decided that my boob HAD indeed grown a little. And the giddiness resumed.

So I continued showering. Once I turned the water off, however, it hit me. Last month, about a week before my period I realised that my hair had become incredibly silky and my skin was good.

And then I also remembered reading somewhere that a week before your period, your breasts may bloat up a bit. Side effect is tenderness in breast. It was quite clear: if your breasts look bigger, forget it you're just ovulating.

So I :'( for a little.

And then :O a little because, well..self explanatory la.

mehhh, stupid hormones.

False hope, thats what it does. Creates false hope! :;(

2009-10-07T15:52:00.004+08:00

I had lunch with my baby niece today. Not my brother's daughter. My cousin's!

How adorable. She is 2, talks and questions non stop with a slight Australian accent. She goes: "Oh my goodness..!" hehehe. goodness with a slight pull in the last syllable.

How adorable.

But she's going back on Sunday :(

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And I've been thinking really hard. Whether I'm ready, whether I'm able and if I'd like it. I'm so excited and afraid at the same time, I rotate between these 2 like every 15 seconds -_-

But the pressure is on! Exams are in roughly 3 weeks! :S Let me continue nerding a lil while longer, yes?

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I have decided the candidates for my DSLR!

An amateur Sony A-100;

A Nikon D80;

A Canon EOS-1000D;

Canon G-11;

YES YES YES???!!!?!?!?!

So incredibly sexy.
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Black Eyed Peas - I gotta feeling.

My first DSLR (to-be)

2009-10-03T01:33:00.004+08:00

Hello everybody! :D

Why am I so happy you ask? Because I just had the most euphoric day evaahh!!!1!

ok, lets move on!

So, I've been saving my pennies for a long time now..and I think I am finally able to afford a DSLR!!!!

though its a DSLR minus huge ass lenses. :(

But anyway, I'm looking for suggestions. Which DSLR would you recommend I get? Preferred brands would the Sony or Canon!

Suggest away please!

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Music for the day: Miley Cyrus - Party in the USA

because this song suits my mood right now!

2009-09-29T13:28:00.002+08:00

BDT textbook - CHECK
Assignment specification - CHECK
Half finished SCM draft - CHECK
Awesome songs loaded on youtube - CHECK
Natural lighting - CHECK

*rubs hands* Time to get cracking!!

And yeah, thats mainly the reason I've been missing so much lately! fret not, I'll be back soon! :D

2009-09-14T01:40:00.004+08:00

I haven't had the chance to read PostSecret in a while, so while waiting for my videos to load just now, I thought I'd go check it out.

When I got there I scrolled through the secrets and then saw this:

T__T

When I read this, I had to stop for a while coz emotions overtook me. I tear up every time I read this. T__T

Babyboy please don't ever leave me. T_T

2009-09-09T09:09:00.001+08:00

YAYYYY!

09/09/09 : 09.09pm

Edit:// I'm pretty sure I posted this up yesterday but I don't know why it got taken off. Anyhow, I'm reposting this :)

Rais "Cakap Orang Putih"

2009-08-28T22:09:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to make any comments about this. But seeing that merdeka is around the corner, I strongly suggest you watch the below video.

Keep in mind that this is our cultural minister. He, of all people, should be aware of globalization.

Leave comments if you like.

dum de dum de dum

2009-08-25T17:19:00.004+08:00

Taking a break from code writing. :D

I'm telling you, we technical people don't like writing ok! So please stop making us write "60 lines of text, each line containing at least 50-60 characters" >:(

hmph.

So I've become broke this month. Lunch at Pyramid every Tuesday = lunch that costs > 10 bucks = :(
But I'm so tired of eating at the uni's cafe! The food sucks and I'll reek of food once I leave the cafe. ish.

We were going for Japanese today but because we're all broke like an old oak (just trying to make it rhyme) we were opting for set lunches. Unfortunately Ajisen Ramen wasn't open so I said lets go to Teppanyaki instead. So we went. And unfortunately, it wasn't Tepanyaki, it was: Mr. Freaking Teppanyaki! >( hmph, no wonder the food sucked so bad. And they kept playing DVD 2 of Mr Bean's second movie. And how come they charge 5% gov tax! I though no more 5% gov tax!

>(

So many >( 's

And they didn't accept my booking fee today cause they said its too early! >>>( hmph.

And if you miss my hugee face:

Hee, finally got around to posting my curled hair.
Like? <3>

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Lenka, Trouble is A Friend. yes, I'm soo addicted to Lenka!

BOOM!

2009-08-20T19:23:00.003+08:00

So, life has been a little overwhelming these days.

There is a lot of things I need to settle soon, and its just so much to take in right now. A little numb, but I'll get through. I always do. :)

But enough about that. I have amusing stuff to tell you guys today.

You know how, we need those red P stickers during the first two years of our driving to tell drivers that we're probationers? Well, over in Malaysia, we get bullied a lot. At least I do -_-

So I was driving home the other day at around 11.50am and this car behind me was tailgating me all the way. And I needed to make a U-turn soon so i slowed down because everyone in front of me was hitting the breaks anyway. This dude behind me however, tried to be clever and made to overtake me AT THE U-TURN on my LEFT SIDE. So I let him because I wasn't in any rush anyway. And right after we got out/passed/finishes U-turning, there was a police block!. hahahahahahahaha.

Let me emphasize : HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH!

So he got stopped and probably had to bribe/pay a fine. While the policemen just waved me on. : D Good for him. Let me underline his mistakes.

a) Not supposed to overtake at a U-turn.
b) Cannot overtake on the left side.

That totally made my day. All road bullies/hog deserves this. :D :D

Ah, vindictive pleasure.
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This is Lenka, The Show.

Musical inside

2009-08-06T18:41:00.003+08:00

So I've got something new in mind! I've decided to embed a youtube video of a song/music I like every time I make a post. This way, you guys can enjoy them as well(if you have same song tastes like me). I'll embed it at the bottom of every post so as not to obstruct my posting halfway. :D

A good friend of mine is having her farewell today and I can't make it cause of my crazy workload/schedule. :(

Here is my first song choice of my project!

Cinderella

2009-08-04T20:25:00.002+08:00

Steven Curtis Chapman is a great man. A year after his 5 year old daughter(Maria Sue Chunxi Chapman) died from a horrible accident that left the family scarred, he is back on his feet and has recently announced that his latest album is ready.

Cinderella is my favorite song of his collection.

The first time I heard this song, my body trembled with goosebumps throughout the entire song. I am not kidding. This is how I judge which songs I should take the trouble to download(*coughoffthenetcough*).

Today, I listened to it again. And the goosebumps were still there. Everybody with daughters can definitely related to this song. Every daughter should listen to this song. I had the opportunity, Steve Curtis Chapman gave me the chance.

I am generally not a teary person, but I teared listening to it. :''| Because its so true, so very true in every aspect of life.

Stop. Look around. Its already August!
Stop. Listen. My parents are so much greyer.
Stop. Do. Time passes too quick.
Stop. Speak. Tell them you love them.

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I'm back from the hiatus! :D I'm busier than ever with the new semester and I'm barely brushing through each day because there is so much to do! To put it simply, I'm expected to complete: 1practical(awfully hard!), 1 Maths assignment(every week! :S) and completing my online unit's weekly task every week by Friday! And then there is also the other 3 assignments from my 4th unit.

Can die. :( I emoe.

So please come back, I promise to update more often! *gives you chocolate* *sweet smile*

Missed me~~mememe~~?

My internet has been a bitch

2009-07-21T18:01:00.003+08:00

So the internet has been shit the past few weeks. And my foc hair curled pic will be up a little later than expected. My internet crashes every time I try to upload a picture onto Blogger.

But so far?

Sem 2 has started. Officially for me today, because I have Mondays off, thank god. That means, later Sunday night internet TV binging! :D No la, really its because I heard work load for this sem will be really heavy *halo hahaha.

I also found out that my compulsory core unit for this sem is like a business subject that funnily resembles my business unit I took as an elective last sem. Which is ~~good~~ ~~bad~~ goodbad cause I can't really decide. Now, thank god I didn't take another business elective this time around. I don't think I could've handled reading so much stuff.

On the other hand, I have a self learning unit this sem! Which basically means no lecture which is ~~good~~ ~~bad~~ goodbad cause I can't really decide (again). I don't exactly see myself to be the kind that can be relied to study independently but time will show. No, scratch that, I can't afford to fail because I don't want to waste any time. :D *halo

Oh, and if you were wondering, I passed all my previous sem units. Which basically means no retake = awesome! Not with the results I expected/wanted but ok nonetheless. But as you can see in my previous post, my GPA is screwed. Because out of a 4.0 scale I only got a ...... Think what you like, I'm not telling but I THINK I screwed it up.

hmpff!

hello world

2009-07-17T01:09:00.003+08:00

WHERE HAS MY THREE OBLIVIOUS, TOTAL ENJOYMENT WEEKS GONE!

my GPA is screwed.

So what have I been doing in my total absence? I have since, completed all the seasons of The L word(yes, lesbian movie I know but its actually nice!), 3 seasons of house, and I bought the SIMS 3 cd last week. I have been playing it non stop. As in: 1pm till 3 am everyday. :D

So, I am back. Because sem 2 is about to start and life is about to get on its way. Which also mean I need my place to rant! hehe :)

See you sooon!

Sponge

2009-07-04T14:41:00.008+08:00

Hello!

Miss me? hehe.

Sorry about the slightly blur picture, I would have used another one but I couldn't find any other pictures that I would not be ashamed to put up so just bear with thte slightly blurry one. :)

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Here's a random picture of my work station at home

No la, I just actually like this picture a lot but have no reason to put it up so I just came up with something random. hahahah.
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ahem. So yes, I discovered something on my head today! no no, not kutu (head lice) but!

Look at this! I have a split end! T_T

Oh oh, and I changed my bath sponge today.

This is how a used bath sponge looks like

And this is how a new bath sponge looks like.

No difference meh? Got la, see the used one is like more fluffy (?) and the new old is tighter! wtf.

This, on the other hand is how a bagful of new bath sponges looks like! :D

HAHAHA. Ok, end of update. See you all sooooon! :)

Bows head

2009-06-18T17:36:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the long absence. I haven't been inherently busy, just a tad bit lazy. *grin

But here is whats new, I'm in the middle of my semester exam right now. Just finished 2 papers as of yesterday but I still have 2 more to go. *grimace I don't even know why this time around I feel so unexcited. Not that I'm excited about exams, but you know that slight panicky moment you have the day before an exam. I don't even feel that now ._.

Not bad ah, Monash has numbed my senses wtf. No la, I think its because I'm always rushing to meet assignment datelines and studying for tutorial tests. But I don't start on my assignments late! really! See right, for one of my unit, we have 3 assignments in total for the semester. My 2nd assignment was due roughly a month before the exams and then my 3rd one was due on the last day of my semester. So basically, I had 2 weeks to spit the assignment out. It was also the hardest assignment :( So as expected, I got a horrible result for it :( hmph!

And I was under slight depression during that time because I had so much difficulty doing it. And there was pressure because I have been scoring an average of HDs (ie A) on it so far. So..yeah. Thats when I typed all the emo, untitled posts out. ._.

But I haven't really been studying for the exams. I did watch 3 seasons of House though. hehe.

And I also don't have any pictures for you guys. yet. coomeee backkkk!

*pandahmph! at all you unfaithful readers. gahahaha.

I will be back, don't give up on me yet! ok oko okokok! *hugs*

Teeny confession

2009-06-03T16:18:00.004+08:00

Ok la, time for another confession. I haven't been taking project 365 photos during the last 2 weeks. :(

But I swear, its only because I have been too busy to think of anything else but to just cope with my workload.

Anyway, I don't think I'll be continuing the project daily anymore cause I'm fickle minded like that, but don't worry I'll still be taking mindless and/or camwhore pics to post up :D So lets get on, eh.
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In order:

Kopiko candies for my coffee fix at night. hehe

Cadbury bars for my chocolate fix at anytime of the day

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One week break here -_-
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Some yummy leftover grilled chicken I found in the fridge and some TP and spag sauce. No, really, its actually really awesome!

This is me, last Sunday. After I handed in my final assignment for this semester!

Sorry about the ugly nose, blotchy skin and oh, that finger covering part of the photo on the top right corner as well hehe.

And lastly, look at my Pod's earphones!

Why is it like that wan! I just discovered it today. How come the rubber on the sides of the ear plug became soft and is peeling off. And why is it green! :( I thought at first it was fungus so I dug deeper -_- but it wasn't. Now I'm scared to put it in my ear! Does anyone know whyyyy.?

2009-06-01T17:27:00.001+08:00

I'm back, everybody! :D No more emo nemo!

So..just wait till tomorrow's post k. Class only until 10AM (!!!) tmr. :D

Only 2 weeks more till my final exam..

2009-05-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

And I'm such a horrible person for secretly hoping they can't do it too.

Who is there to blame but except yourself, for being a dunce.

And there is that tiny tiny part of me..

And just when you think you're able..